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Thursday, October 14, 2010

I am in DILEMMA right now!!

Hallo!Good evening. Hope everything went smoothly today. Today im going to give out what was in my mind along this week in this post. More than 70%, this matter flying around in my head and never stop swim and fly until now.

Last June, a teacher from morning session came to me. She is married and now have two little daughters. She is teaching Biology and Science Form 4 and Form 5. Well, she asked me to 'berganti' with her. Mean,she want to replace me in afternoon session and me, replace her in morning session. But, because i already 'sebati' with my students, i decided to say NO, I DON'T. Moreover, that month was in the middle of the year. So, i dont want to  repeat EARLY YEAR'S SITUATION for the new morning classes. I said to her, "beginilah,sekarang saya tidak mau pigi pagi, sebab pertengahan tahun suda, emm,nanti laa alang2 nnt kita bincang hjg tahun untuk tahun depan pnya.". So, she agreed and we carry on the current class. So, current month is October already. The Panitia Leaders is begin to ask which classes and who teaches the class.

Last Tuesday, the teacher asked me again about the 'pertukaran'. So, im blur, blur and blur. I cant do the decision. So, i said to her, give me chance to think again until this week and i will tell you on Friday. She agreed. On that time, i got the chance to say, if i wont,would you mind it?Then, she laugh and said,"saya mau juga,hahaha". and i replied her with more loudly laughing. Okey, let me think first. I will tell you on Friday.

Today is Thursday. I have to tell her my decision tomorrow. And now, i am currently BENGONG. What is my decision huh?Really, i am serious, i dont have the confirm decision right now. Jadi apala sa mau cakap sma dia ni bisuk.hahaha..When i was at school today, leaders fromMathematic Panitia asked me to still teach my math class this year on next year. That is mean, im going to teach examination class next year for the first time.And you know, i am really refuse with that. So many feeling inside my heart. Two of them are, i am afraid the best result become not really good. and also, there are so many 'anak guru' in that class. So,ini kali yg bikin sa worried nie. Maybe, this is a shocked for me as this is my first time to take over the class.

So,which is my decision? Going up to morning session or staying at afternoon session and teach examination class??hohohohohooooo...CURRENTLY, I AM TOTALY LOST RIGHT NOW....

For tonight, thatz all..Hopefully, God will give the best choice through dream!
Good nite all!

This is my workplace. My first school as a teacher. Posted here on Nov 10, 2008 and came to this school on Now 14,2010.

4 comments:

banochezlife said...

Ok.. let me say something ORIGINALLY from me..and I hope this helps u find out ur decision. 1st of all, your exact position is teaching SCIENCE right? well, go AHEAD! Give ur student the best u have. I guess u know what i mean, Yeah, switch with that teacher. Go teaches the Morning session's class. They need u'r science knowledge and of course, u'll be happy teaching science (i bet). In addition, when u're teaching in the morning session, then you'll have the whole afternoon to evening as ur time. Perhaps, when it comes to some sort of plans like going wayanging, you'll manage to hit the road on time!. Well, this is my spontaneous opinion bout ur current situation. i suggest, say "YES". You'll help her, and you'll help urself(perhaps) :)

kolosz said...

Bano, thank you so much for the above comment. I like it. Yeah, my exac position is Chemistry and minoring in Biology. But, after about 2 years teaching science in lower secondary, i think my confident level to teach Biology is low. Beside that, i also taught math for only one class.But, dont know why, i am so in love with math right now and feel still want to teach math for next year. (Math is my first choice at ums at first,but cant get it because if i choose math, physic will be the minor.i hate physic haha). So, if i move to morning session, i wont be teaching math and teach all sciences subject.How disappointed me!!haha. But if i stay at afternoon session, the exam class will be given to me.huh. still i refuse....But, maybe, tonight i will learn to make decision. perhaps, i do going up to morning session!!maybe...

banochezlife said...

ok2.. concerning bout what that 'u really want' is teaching math in the afternoon session but NOT in the exam classes kan? Hahahaha.. I bet that was a GREAT and HUGE dilemma.... if u stay in the afternoon session, u'll hate 1 thing which is teaching the exam's classes, but when u r in the morning session, u dont have the confidence to teach bio anymore kan.. hahahahaha... really a tough dilemma......... i suggest, look or find for some 'external' x-factor for when u teaches at every session. the goods and the not really goods.. hahahaa

kolosz said...

yaaaaaa you got it banoChez..!!itu laituuuu yg bmain d fikiran sayaaa...huge and very huge dilemma of mine now..but now il let to God and asked the best from HIM. apa yg saya ckp dan buat kptsn esok itulah yg terbaik utk saya dan i trust it from God......