Monday, August 8, 2011

For the first time in our times together

Have a nice day and night peoples. Yesterday was so relax at school. I just have one class. And my teaching goes well. Today, i again refreshed by my own words. In the class, i was a bit angry to the some students in the class because they making noise while i was talking, explaining the topics. So because of that, i get angry and talked 'cuci telinga' to the students. When i think back, yeah i realize that its been a long time i did not delivered any motivation words to my students. I talked a lot and my own words refresh myself. Ehm, i was so happy too, because all the students became good and no more noisy. They listened my explanation carefully and i like it so much! I don't care their mind flying to the other place as long as their eyes looking at me and their ear listening to me. Well done! :)

Yesterday also, the house agent came to my school again. He purposely came and want to meet me because he forget to give the form. This matter also resulted me 'sakit kapala'. Even the decision was made, but the anxiety still annoying me. Whatever it is, I just leave this to my God to handle the rest. I just hope that all the ''bisnes' went smoothly and well.

Yesterday also, after return to home from school, i text my darling from 6.00pm until now, 12.37 am. So many things was shared between us. And you know, i shocked a lot when she, for the first time talking firstly about marriage. Wah, I am really shocked. And i am even more shocked when she asked me to settle our relationship. I mean, she wanted to be with me in a very serious relationship and she asked that thing next year, that is before she go back to Penang for the final semester assessment in her dental course. Yes i do understand why she asked me that matter so rush. And now, i started to think it because she was talking that matter very damn seriously. I think I'm not ready yet. How about you readers, have u been in this kind of situation? I know some of you have been through this thing and for those of you that never come to this matter yet, ya sure you will face it when your times come. God, help me, guide me in this matter. Please prepare me a bright way so that the things happen is your will. I know you are hearing me. Tq God..

Whatever it is now, i will just leave it to my God for He is knowing more!

Gd nite!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

BIG Decision Was Made Today

Hello...have a very pleasant day to all. Hope you all guys are in good condition. I am not really okey recently. After the choir competition last Saturday, i was attacked by the fever plus with the flu. One package sure! And it really made me mad all those days. I hate it, because i feel very not comfortable with that circumstances. Whatever it is, i hope i will get well soon and make my days as usual.

By the time, i also attacked by a housing sales agent. He represents the Wongkok Company. I actually been thinking this matter about two weeks ago when i get my confirmation letter from spp in the previous week. But at the time, i don't have the time to ask the person in detail because as i state and mention in my previous entry, i was very busy with the final preparation of choir competition. So, i don't managed to get the information about the house. Last Tuesday, the agent came to my school again. Then, my heart really really not tahan to ask about the house. So, i approach the man and ask him so many questions about the process and the sure the house. So, when i get the information, he gave me two days to think this matter before Thursday. He told me, if can, your decision must be on Thursday because on the following day, they will gather in their company and will have a long meeting about two agendas. The first is about the price of the house while the second is about the refund. Actually i know his purpose, told me the thing, that was a trick but i was seriously want to have one.

I had no choice and don't have the decision yet at the time because i myself very hard to make the decision. So, i decided to go back to my village with the matter that still flying actively in my head. At my home, i did the discussion with my parents witnessed by my sister. I explained all about the house to them. My mum was refuse for the first time because she kasian sama gue. But, i tried to calm her down by explain it again with a big hope she will agree with this matter. I just leave one question to them. If you say YES, I will say YES to the sale agent, but if not, then i will say NO to the sale agent. So, my parents said Yes at the time but i still can see the anxiety in their face. When i realize that thing, i don't push them. This is up to us now i said to them.

In the morning of Wednesday, i go back again to SMKN. And guess what, my day was full of thinking. Thinking, thinking and thinking. My teaching not really okey but i managed to delivered the topic of the week. It just i was not concentrate at all because the house matter really made me thinking all the times even i was in the class.

So, today, with no decision yet, i came to school as usual. The slae agent actually asked me to text him my decision. But i don't do that. About 2 o'clock, suddenly the man was in the staffroom. Oh no! How??? I don't have the decision yet!! Before the man came, my friends and i get the chance to talk about the house.  So many questions in my head and lastly i see him personally and asked him directly all the things that still make me worry to buy the house. By the time, my mum and i calling each other, talking about the house. My mum gave me the power to make decision. Finally about 3.30pm today, i said YES to the sale agent. Oooh! How hard i did this decision! I filled the form and confirm the house location. I choose the house in the third floor, in the corner. The house will completely finish June next year. Waaa...i dont believe that i am in this level now. First, get my myvi, and then now get my own house. This is a very long investment. The first plan at the moment is, i will rent the house to the ums student since they already book the housing for the students. After married, i will stay in the house with my family!

All in all, i declared that August 4, 2011 is the historical day in my life!! God was made the way for me and hopefully all the business will blessed by my God! Amen!